As a human beings, we all wants something. Food is the easiest things we get easily. There is something i cannot get at this moment. The feeling is so bad. As my expectations gets higher, the feeling got worst. At moment like this, I can only asked myself, why I have such needs.

I have been unhappy, at the same time, worrying. I hope the day will stop here and not continue but it will never be. Sometimes, seeing people that we love unhappy, we are also unhappy. I pray to God let unhappiness go away, let the joy fills our heart. when needs are not fulfilled, what can we do except pray?

All the breasfeeding issues arris again when I carried out some search in Google because my new born is not passing seed/mustard stool. His stool is still watery and yesterday was slimy. Based on

The Importance of Newborn Stool Counts

Denise Bastien
From LEAVEN, Vol. 33 No. 6, December 1997-January 1998, pp. 123-6

http://www.llli.org/llleaderweb/LV/LVDec97Jan98p123.html, it is because the baby did not receive much hind milk. This explains why my baby is not gaining enough weight in his first month (only increased 0.8kg).

The more I read the worried I become, sometimes getting too much information also a problem-lacking of knowledge to filter it.